Atiqa Victoria :: I MISS YOU ::

I was having my supper after watching Rio that I felt so sleepy and decided to sleep early. At 2am in the morning, tiba-tiba terjaga. They say that if kita terjaga dari tidur waktu-waktu macam tu maknanya malaikat kejutkan kita. I went up from the bed, solat and I prayed for everything to be fine for me, my family, friends and him. After performing my solat, I went to grab my novel, I was reading Aimee Ferris' 'Will Work For Prom Dress' and suddenly I saw his face. Macam tiba-tiba muncul dalam ingatan. I guess I especially miss him tonight.


When I was sickly laying on my bed, I had a very worse demam for a week, he went to my house, did all this pertanyaan about my health, and really caring that he didn't want me to sakit-sakit lagi. My parents were not around, so I was kinda sad and depressed at the same time. Tell me, siapa yang suka sakit tapi takde siapa-siapa nak jaga? None of us kan? Masa sakit ni la I suddenly remembered my mum's porridge and tomyam because everytime jatuh sakit, my mum akan beli tomyam panas-panas for me and my siblings. But when I was sakit, no mummy to look after me and to buy me tomyam. So, he replaced my mum, took her role and tried his best to look after me. I was touched and I told my bffs about it. They say that I should be thankful to him because for them, they saw him as a very caring person.


When I was hungry and I found nothing that I could eat, suddenly he came to my house and bought so many delicious food for me. You name it, he will always buy me anything that I want to eat. With smile on is face he said "Nah, I beli untuk you. Makanlah k". Of course I ate all of them but in my heart I felt like crying because how come ada lelaki yang masih lagi nak melayan my kerenah up to this level? He knows that I only drink mineral water so he personally delivered the mineral water to me because usually every two week, I will buy sekotak mineral water kat kedai borong. He knew that kotat air tu berat, so he did all the 'pembelian mineral water' and hantar kat my rumah instead of me going there, took all the trouble of bringing them back.


Not only that, he always try his best to go out with me. We actually managed to go to good places together, tried so many crazy things and explore so many new experiences. We share our happiness and sadness. If bergaduh pun tak akan lama, it is either me or him yang akan fixed the problem so that kitorang tak bergaduh lagi. He once told me that I am a person yang kuat berjalan. He had hard times to cope with my way of 'exploring the world' but because of me, dia ikut je my kehendak. And I feel like kesian kat dia but at the same time I try my best to ikut his will juga so that we can complete each other. 


Sometimes, rasa sangat pelik bila dia asyik nak jumpa, nak jumpa, nak jumpa. Bukan bosan tapi pelik. Dalam seminggu, usually kitorang akan jumpa sekali je but yang peliknya dia sanggup datang rumah sampai 3-4 kali seminggu and we talked about nothing pun bila jumpa. Rindu ke? I don't know. But, I'm very thankful to Allah for sending such a nice guy to look after me and to always remind me to not forget my duty as a Muslim. 


My dad seemed to talk to him before. He seemed like to do a lil bit of talking with him which was suprising to me as my dad don't really talk to stranger. It's a good sign, right? I just want him to know that I miss him so much. He's not here with me. He's so far away from here. Next year baru dapat jumpa balik. I do feel sedikit ralat sebab our last meeting (we went to watch Euro at mamak je) was superb that I did not able to say goodbye to him in a proper way. Erm, I can only look at the ring he gave me, all the photos we took together and I can only read your messages on my phone and call you when I miss you. But that 'kekosongan' cannot be replaced by those things. It's okay. We both know that I'm not a strong girl because I'm driven by my emotions, right? Hoho, kuat taching ke? I will try my best to not mourning on this 'separation' sebab Insyaallah tahun depan kalau takde apa-apa yang jadi, I will meet you again Mr. Muchuk. Please don't forget my existence ye :)




Nota Penulis: I guess being jauh from each other makes him paranoid kot. Kalau tak pick up his call or reply his messages, he will freak out gila-gila like I have forgotten him forever. Chill, I was just sleeping masa tu. Hehehe. Take care. Perform elok-elok kat sana. Semoga dapat buat yang terbaik. Imy. Sambung baca novel balik..


7 bulan.. 2 minggu.. 5 hari.. ^^

This novel is fun. Kill masa sikit nak lupakan 'kekosongan' tu :)