Atiqa Victoria :: KAWAN DENGAN AKU UNTUK APA? ::

Orang kata, the last person yang kita fikirkan setiap hari sebelum kita tidur is the person where our heart lies for. Aku pun tak terkecuali berbuat macam tu, thinking of him every night before aku tidur. But, adakah dia macam aku juga? Tak mungkin kot... (NI MUKADIMAH YANG TAKDE KENA MENGENA DENGAN ENTRY)

Aku someone yang senang rapat and mesra dengan orang. Maybe sebab aku friendly and sporting, orang akan selalu cari aku untuk berkongsi masalah, bercerita itu ini dan ajak aku lepak. Aku tak kesah, tak rugi kita buat kawan kat dunia ni. Bila kawan ramai, senang kita nanti nak mintak tolong.

Tapi yang aku perasan, orang suka cari aku untuk huha-huha juga. Maksudnya, bila kau down, kau nak happy kan diri kau baru kau cari aku. Senang cerita, bila kau perlukan aku untuk 'kepentingan' kau, baru lah kau nak ngendeng-ngendeng dengan aku, buat baik dengan aku.

Aku pelik sangat. Kenapa orang buat macam tu ek dengan aku? Sampai sekarang aku tak dapat lagi reason kenapa aku selalu dilayan macam ni oleh 'segelintir' manusia yang mengaku teman aku... Seriously, aku pun manusia biasa. Ada hati, ada perasaan and aku tahu rasa fed-up tu macam mana. Please la. Take advantage kat orang lain lah. Aku dah penat lah nak buat baik dengan orang.

Kalau korang rasa kawan dengan aku boleh dapat macam-macam keuntungan, memang betullah tapi sampai bila? Lu pikirlah sendiri ye..... :)

Aku tak marah, aku nasihat je :P

Atiqa Victoria :: I MISS YOU ::

I was having my supper after watching Rio that I felt so sleepy and decided to sleep early. At 2am in the morning, tiba-tiba terjaga. They say that if kita terjaga dari tidur waktu-waktu macam tu maknanya malaikat kejutkan kita. I went up from the bed, solat and I prayed for everything to be fine for me, my family, friends and him. After performing my solat, I went to grab my novel, I was reading Aimee Ferris' 'Will Work For Prom Dress' and suddenly I saw his face. Macam tiba-tiba muncul dalam ingatan. I guess I especially miss him tonight.


When I was sickly laying on my bed, I had a very worse demam for a week, he went to my house, did all this pertanyaan about my health, and really caring that he didn't want me to sakit-sakit lagi. My parents were not around, so I was kinda sad and depressed at the same time. Tell me, siapa yang suka sakit tapi takde siapa-siapa nak jaga? None of us kan? Masa sakit ni la I suddenly remembered my mum's porridge and tomyam because everytime jatuh sakit, my mum akan beli tomyam panas-panas for me and my siblings. But when I was sakit, no mummy to look after me and to buy me tomyam. So, he replaced my mum, took her role and tried his best to look after me. I was touched and I told my bffs about it. They say that I should be thankful to him because for them, they saw him as a very caring person.


When I was hungry and I found nothing that I could eat, suddenly he came to my house and bought so many delicious food for me. You name it, he will always buy me anything that I want to eat. With smile on is face he said "Nah, I beli untuk you. Makanlah k". Of course I ate all of them but in my heart I felt like crying because how come ada lelaki yang masih lagi nak melayan my kerenah up to this level? He knows that I only drink mineral water so he personally delivered the mineral water to me because usually every two week, I will buy sekotak mineral water kat kedai borong. He knew that kotat air tu berat, so he did all the 'pembelian mineral water' and hantar kat my rumah instead of me going there, took all the trouble of bringing them back.


Not only that, he always try his best to go out with me. We actually managed to go to good places together, tried so many crazy things and explore so many new experiences. We share our happiness and sadness. If bergaduh pun tak akan lama, it is either me or him yang akan fixed the problem so that kitorang tak bergaduh lagi. He once told me that I am a person yang kuat berjalan. He had hard times to cope with my way of 'exploring the world' but because of me, dia ikut je my kehendak. And I feel like kesian kat dia but at the same time I try my best to ikut his will juga so that we can complete each other. 


Sometimes, rasa sangat pelik bila dia asyik nak jumpa, nak jumpa, nak jumpa. Bukan bosan tapi pelik. Dalam seminggu, usually kitorang akan jumpa sekali je but yang peliknya dia sanggup datang rumah sampai 3-4 kali seminggu and we talked about nothing pun bila jumpa. Rindu ke? I don't know. But, I'm very thankful to Allah for sending such a nice guy to look after me and to always remind me to not forget my duty as a Muslim. 


My dad seemed to talk to him before. He seemed like to do a lil bit of talking with him which was suprising to me as my dad don't really talk to stranger. It's a good sign, right? I just want him to know that I miss him so much. He's not here with me. He's so far away from here. Next year baru dapat jumpa balik. I do feel sedikit ralat sebab our last meeting (we went to watch Euro at mamak je) was superb that I did not able to say goodbye to him in a proper way. Erm, I can only look at the ring he gave me, all the photos we took together and I can only read your messages on my phone and call you when I miss you. But that 'kekosongan' cannot be replaced by those things. It's okay. We both know that I'm not a strong girl because I'm driven by my emotions, right? Hoho, kuat taching ke? I will try my best to not mourning on this 'separation' sebab Insyaallah tahun depan kalau takde apa-apa yang jadi, I will meet you again Mr. Muchuk. Please don't forget my existence ye :)




Nota Penulis: I guess being jauh from each other makes him paranoid kot. Kalau tak pick up his call or reply his messages, he will freak out gila-gila like I have forgotten him forever. Chill, I was just sleeping masa tu. Hehehe. Take care. Perform elok-elok kat sana. Semoga dapat buat yang terbaik. Imy. Sambung baca novel balik..


7 bulan.. 2 minggu.. 5 hari.. ^^

This novel is fun. Kill masa sikit nak lupakan 'kekosongan' tu :)

Atiqa Victoria :: ADAM RIFQI, MY LIL MAN ::

Alhamdulillah. this evening finally dapat juga pergi melawat my newborn nephew yang lahir 17 Mei yang lepas. Dah nak sebulan dah anak buah Mak Yong ni tapi baru hari ni dapat melawat sebab masa Adam lahir hari itu aku masih lagi 'berkuliah' di UPSI.

When he opens his eyes for the first time :)

If I'm not mistaken, Adam lahir petang 17 Mei 2012, dan berat Adam masa dilahirkan adalah 3.36 kg. Berat ke bagi newborn baby? Tak tahu la aku. Huhuhu. Masa pergi tadi pun dah lewat petang dah, sebab pergi hantar Yaya Azamuddin balik asrama dulu then baru rushing pergi rumah Tok Abah Adam. Sampai-sampai je nampak kakak Adam, Ainina Kaisara my 2 years old niece tengah layan Boboiboy sambil main masak-masak. Sebab dah lama tak melepak dengan dia, dia macam buat 'dek' sikit dengan Mak Yong dia. Lepas kena rasuah Choco Pie seketul, terus dia ok and main kiss-kiss dengan aku. Sapelah ajar budak kecik ni terima rasuah? Huhuhu

Ateh Mama Adam offer nak bagi pegang Adam but I was too scared to hold him since dia sangat kecik and he was sleeping like a lil prince.. Comel sangat dengan mulut terbuka. But bila picit-picit sikit pipi Adam, dia bukak mata jap then sambung tidur balik. Sumpah Mak Yong jeles Adam boleh rilek-rilek tidur, makan, kena dukung, kena dodoi. Kalau mintak dengan Puan Mama, agak-agak boleh dapat lagi tak? Harammmm. Kikiki

Sleeping with open mouth. Kawaiiiiiii

Sebab dapat anak buah baru, excited kena lebih sebab tau la kan, aku kan sangat suka budak-budak. Nak main dengan Umairah, Umairah kat Putrajaya so next time dapatlah main dengan Adam pulak kan. Ainina Kaisara, mintak maaf. Mak Yong nak sayang adik lebih dari kakak. Hehehe

I bought a shoes for Adam. I bought it with Encik Fazree last week but tak sempat nak bagi kat Mama Adam. I love everything about babies. Baby's clothes sangat cute and I couldn't resist myself bila tengok barang-barang baby. Rasa nak beli semua dan buat anak banyak-banyak....................................................... (Tapi rasa macam diri ini belum berkahwin je. Ehek). Semoga Adam cepat besar and jadi anak yang berguna untuk Mama dan Papa k.. Jangan noty-noty macam kakak Adam! Buas beno! Penat MakYong nak jaga :)

Super cute shoes :)

Nota Penulis: Tak lama lagi boleh dah beli kasut baby untuk anak sendiri. Lalalalalala.